Yup… we’re doing it. In 2021 I sat across the table From Lewis Howes and his beautiful now-wife, Maria, listening to them gush over their then-new relationship… and how from Day One, therapy was a non-negotiable. Both individually and as a couple, they committed to working on themselves to give such a special union the best chance possible.

I’ve never forgotten that.

Fast forward to one year ago when I met Ryan, I immediately knew he was special. Our connection was special. And more than anything… it is a thing worth protecting and growing.

Patterns are a real thing. And to be honest, I have more than a bag of destructive patterns…individually and relationally. I’m aware enough to know these days that if I don’t continue to peel back the layers of healing, I will continue to repeat those patterns which have destroyed precious things historically.

This podcast is about that. And it’s about how over the last year Ryan and I have both committed to diving in head first.

Relationships are mirrors… and sometimes those damn mirrors are hard to look into. But only by allowing the mirrors to be held up, can we become aware of our blind spots and ultimately (hopefully) evolve into two people who can hold a healthy relationship. :)

This conversation touches on communication, self-awareness, people-pleasing, vulnerability, and the courage it takes to be fully seen by another person. We explore how our past experiences still shape the way we show up today and why healthy relationships often reveal the parts of ourselves that still need attention.

In this episode, we discuss:

• Why personal growth doesn't stop when you find the right relationship

• The relationship patterns we never want to repeat

• How unspoken expectations can create distance and resentment

• The challenge of balancing ambition, family, friendships, and connection

• What vulnerability actually looks like in a healthy relationship

• The fears and insecurities that still show up for both of us

• Choosing curiosity over defensiveness during difficult conversations

• How growth often begins where comfort ends

  
  

  
  

More than anything, this episode is a reminder that the strongest relationships aren't built by two perfect people. They're built by two people willing to keep learning, keep communicating, and keep choosing each other through every season of growth.

Here are the key moments from the episode:

00:00 What Happens When Old Patterns Return

04:03 Why We’re Finally Talking About Long Distance

07:07 Redefining What “Failed” Relationships Really Mean

10:23 Can the Honeymoon Phase Actually Last Forever?

13:19 When Your Partner Notices Every Tiny Shift

16:11 The Fear of Being Fully Seen

18:06 When People-Pleasing Starts Stealing Your Peace

21:56 The Pattern Heidi Refuses to Repeat

26:16 Why We Chose Therapy Before Things Broke

29:21 The Truth About High Expectations in Love

33:36 When Independence Makes Partnership Harder

36:52 Becoming the Average of the Right People

37:43 Losing Yourself to Be Loved

40:10 What Comes Next After the Therapy Intensive

41:47 Why Therapy Is a Tool, Not a Last Resort

43:31 Awareness Is Where Real Change Begins

Connect with Heidi:
Website: https://heidipowell.net/Email: podcast@heidipowell.netInstagram: @realheidipowellFacebook: Heidi PowellYouTube: @RealHeidiPowellTrain with Heidi on her Show Up App: https://www.showupfit.app/

This week, I found myself reflecting on the woman I used to be and the woman I'm still becoming.

After looking back through photos from the last year and a half, I realized I've slowly let go of some of the habits that help me feel my best. As life gets busier with work, motherhood, friendships, and relationships, I've been asking myself an important question: how do we create space for everything that matters without losing ourselves in the process?

In this episode, I share a personal life update and open up about balancing entrepreneurship, parenting, self-care, and the constant challenge of protecting my time and energy. I also reflect on the journey from 18-year-old Heidi, who struggled with self-worth, people-pleasing, and an eating disorder, to the woman I am today.

We talk about healing, self-love, creating safe relationships with our children, and one question that completely stopped me in my tracks, what superpower do you have today that was born from trauma?

In this episode, we discuss:

• Reconnecting with yourself during busy seasons
• Why healthy habits matter more than motivation
• What I would tell my 18-year-old self
• Healing from shame, self-hatred, and people-pleasing
• Learning to create safety and trust with your children
• Letting go of control as your kids grow up
• Why you either win or you learn
• Finding the gifts hidden inside difficult experiences

If you've ever felt overwhelmed, disconnected from yourself, or wondered if healing is really possible, I hope this conversation reminds you that it gets better. Keep going.

I love you guys. Thanks for being here. ❤️

Here are the key moments from the episode:

00:00 Welcome to Heidi’s Lane

04:36 Realising I’ve Been Letting Go of Myself

10:25 The Entrepreneur Struggle No One Sees

13:28 The “Magic” of Movement When You Feel Stuck

15:30 The Moment I Realised No Man Should Love Me More Than I Love Myself

17:12 What 18-Year-Old Heidi Would Think of Me Today

20:25 What I’d Really Tell My Younger Self

24:03 How Cash Is Growing Into a New Role

27:26 The Parenting Advice That Changed How I Listen

30:17 Why You Either Win or You Learn

33:02 The Question That Stopped Me: What Superpower Came From Your Trauma?

36:21 A Challenge to Find the Superpower Inside Your Story

Connect with Heidi:

Website:⁠ https://heidipowell.net/⁠

Email: podcast@heidipowell.net

Instagram: @realheidipowell

Facebook: Heidi Powell

YouTube: @RealHeidiPowell

Train with Heidi on her Show Up App:⁠ https://www.showupfit.app/

I've been wanting to introduce you to these two for a while now.

Chelsea and Emily are two of my favorite people on the planet. They're funny, they're real, they're the kind of women who walk into a room and make everyone feel like they belong. And the moment I started getting to know them, I felt like I'd known them my entire life.

But what brought us here — to this couch, to this conversation — is their story. And it's one I think a lot of people need to hear.

Both Chelsea and Emily were married to men. Both were navigating life inside a religious community. Both had kids. And both, later in life, discovered something about themselves that changed everything.

They came out. And in doing so, they had to lose a lot — their marriages, their identities, their communities — to finally become who they actually were.

Freedom isn't free. And this episode is proof of that.

This is not just a story about sexuality. It's about what it costs to live honestly. It's about the loneliness of going through something no one around you seems to understand. It's about finding the people who have walked your same road. And it's about what you find on the other side of the hardest thing you've ever done.

I walked away from this conversation different. More compassionate. More open. More convinced than ever that the path to real freedom almost always runs straight through the thing you're most afraid of.

If you've ever had to lose something — or burn something down — to finally find yourself... this one is for you.

We talk about:

• What it actually feels like to come out later in life — with kids, a marriage, and a whole identity on the line
• How your story can get told for you before you're ready
• The loneliness of going through something no one around you has experienced
• Finding your people — the ones who have walked your exact road
• What it means to finally stop performing your life
• How going through hard things makes you less judgmental and more human
• Raising kids inside non-traditional families with love, safety, and zero shame
• "I reserve the right to change and evolve" — and why that's not weakness, it's growth

There's so much laughter in this episode. There's rawness. There are moments that gave me chills. And there are things these two said that I'm still thinking about.

This is one of my favorites I've ever recorded. I think you're going to love them as much as I do.

Welcome back to Heidi's Lane. ❤️

Here are the key moments from the episode:

00:00 Why This Episode Hits Different

03:14 How Four Strangers Became Inseparable

07:29 Chelsea's Obsession She Couldn't Explain

12:41 Losing Control of Your Own Coming Out Story

18:06 Navigating Divorce, Kids, and Each Other Simultaneously

23:28 Why Emily Kept Saying No to Everything

28:45 Hell Fast-Tracks You to Your Real Friends

34:03 Meeting Someone Who Has Lived Your Exact Life

38:51 The Treadmill Snub That Almost Ended It All

43:17 How Kids Handle Non-Traditional Families Better Than Adults

47:04 Creating a Home Other People's Kids Run To

51:02 The One Phrase That Changes How You Parent

55:30 The People Judging You Are Living It on Delay

59:57 The Airport Security Guard Who Pushed Too Far

01:04:33 The Space Between Reaction and Response

01:09:14 Why Heidi Is Launching a Women's Supplement Line

Connect with Heidi:

Website: https://heidipowell.net/

Email: podcast@heidipowell.netInstagram: @realheidipowell

Facebook: Heidi PowellYouTube: @RealHeidiPowell

Train with Heidi on her Show Up App: https://www.showupfit.app/

Connect with Emily and Chelsea:

Instagram: @em_moves14